i think i am sick. damn, i hate this feeling when u feel your body is weak, and hotter temprature then usual, a bit hard to breath and i just woke up 3 times, man.
sleep aint helping much, and i'm still feeling low. my head got so many things inside it that i was having a hard time to sort them out not even to have a decent contemplating and solving one single thought.
grrrrrr ... i was wrong perhaps and this is my punishment, i'll life through. i just hope that this condition doesnt make me to screw up the THING that i wanted ... well i'll take it back. what u want isnt necesarily what u need. only god knows. so i pray to u, god. help me please. show me the way. amien
Monday, November 29, 2004
Sunday, November 28, 2004
... keep on dreaming ... just ... to be just ...
but what happen when the other thinks he or she deserves more and more and more ...
whose to blame ??? sitcon problemo ??? am i just enough ??
funny eventhough i tried to write freely the habit wont give in ...
the story kept hidden between the line
but what happen when the other thinks he or she deserves more and more and more ...
whose to blame ??? sitcon problemo ??? am i just enough ??
funny eventhough i tried to write freely the habit wont give in ...
the story kept hidden between the line
Thursday, November 25, 2004
not the best day perhaps but it's been good so far :D
in the morning i logged in to bunga to stumble upon dian but she's not there
i should've seeked her down instead perhaps then i would've met her yesterday
as the sun got high i went to sarken with pa there i watched few movies, read some manga, eat some food (a bite of pempe, a plate of somay, and a wrap of fried rice)
as the night got late we got back to our usual station, and life perhaps was no more down there, wish i checked it though, she might be there.
well a may be is a by gone, so i'll just jot them down and forget about them.
is this really the time to wither away
is it the right time to fade away
the curtain has been drawn long time ago
and my judgement has been passed
is it worth it to open this to u
clean new old page
with judged footnote
and forged title
the price was very high
but u took it anyway
clean old page
with cold black inked line
and sad boundaries on my side
the cost is very expensive
but u paid it anyway
clean old page
white paper with scribles of past
and new words couldnt overwrite the erased
the spirit is very high
but an erased to me is not a forgotten to me
in the morning i logged in to bunga to stumble upon dian but she's not there
i should've seeked her down instead perhaps then i would've met her yesterday
as the sun got high i went to sarken with pa there i watched few movies, read some manga, eat some food (a bite of pempe, a plate of somay, and a wrap of fried rice)
as the night got late we got back to our usual station, and life perhaps was no more down there, wish i checked it though, she might be there.
well a may be is a by gone, so i'll just jot them down and forget about them.
is this really the time to wither away
is it the right time to fade away
the curtain has been drawn long time ago
and my judgement has been passed
is it worth it to open this to u
clean new old page
with judged footnote
and forged title
the price was very high
but u took it anyway
clean old page
with cold black inked line
and sad boundaries on my side
the cost is very expensive
but u paid it anyway
clean old page
white paper with scribles of past
and new words couldnt overwrite the erased
the spirit is very high
but an erased to me is not a forgotten to me
Monday, May 31, 2004
hmmmm days after my last post ..... *chuckle*
recently thinking of an imaginary weapons
that could appear and disappear just like that :)
i just thought up a scene and it goes something like this
truck went up to a mountain and just before a camp site
it stopped. everybody's rushing out of their truck,
most of them were teens wearing jacket, t-shirt and jeans.
from the woods a man run in high speed,
the man worn dark outfit, dashing and hit a truck
the truck wobbled, and fell aside.
"DAMN! alright alright, i am coming out right now!"
"geez u don't have to rock the truck so much!"
a boy step out of the fallen truck,
look kinda sleepy with messy hair.
he starred around a bit, seeing the trees, the landscape,
the dark outfitted guy, the sky, back to the dark guy
he seemed suprised and realized something
"You!"
"tch! no holidays even on a day like this"
a red crv entered the scene.
an old man stepped out from the crv,
wearing full-mountainclimber gear.
"everybody go to the camping ground, quick!"
"no time to waste! we got to set up those camp before dark"
the boy and the dark guy didn't move.
a dark cloud covered the sunlight, darkened the scene.
everybody's rushed to get their camping equipment from their truck
ignoring the heat emmitted from the boy and the dark guy.
the cloud clear out, the dark guy moved in high speed,
charging and took the boy down hill.
"SHIT!"
the boy slipped his hand out of the dark guy's hold
and made a head lock and threw the dark guy to near wide big rock.
the guy repositioned his body and land on his leg, crouched.
the guy stared at the boy and stood up.
the boy stared back and started to losened and relaxed all of his muscles.
the wind blew and grew stronger suddenly the it died down.
the guy hold out his hand and unsheath the tatto in his right arm.
"the dead dont talk!"
"SIMOON!"
the tatto flared red and slowly the guy's shadow stood up,
turning into the exact replica of the dark guy.
the boy's eyes grew wide as he saw
the shadow started to shape beside the dark guy.
"DIE"
the guy and the shadow lunged at the boy.
"tch!"
the boy jumped aside roling into the open.
he threw his jacket and closed his eyes.
the guy and the shadow readied their fist and threw their punch.
the boy opened his eyes, caught the shadow
and threw it back to the dark guy.
"MAGNUM!"
suddenly thunders shreded the sky.
the thunders disintegrated before they stroke the ground.
reappearing in the boy's hand in the form of a handgun.
the boy aimed the gun at the guy.
the guy sunddely braced himself
from behind the trees could be seen series of yellow light sparked from
the mouth of the gun and from the guy.
the guy's clothing were torn apart by the bullets but
he suffered no physical damage
the boy drew himself back. he held the gun with two hands in a firm grip
*looks like i have to use it anyway*
"BREAK!"
suddenly blue spark came out from the mouth of the gun.
the guy realizing the danger, moved his shadow to cover him
the shadow disintegrated, a sudden pain struck the guy.
the tatto on his right arm disappeared.
"ARRGH"
the boy aimed his gun once more with two hand.
"DARK FLARE"
from behind the tall grass could be seen
series black spark out of the mouth of the gun.
the guy fell down. then his body burned in black flame,
leaving only black dust.
suddenly the boy pointed his gun at the tall grass
"U ARE SICK! using your men's life just to see what i can do!"
a heavy voise answered back.
"I only gave them a much more useful life FOR ME!"
a boy appeared from the tall grass, wearing white t-shirt and jeans.
he had white hair although he looked as the same age.
"SCHYTE"
several giant rock disintegrated and reappear in a form of a schyte.
@TO BE CONTINUED@
recently thinking of an imaginary weapons
that could appear and disappear just like that :)
i just thought up a scene and it goes something like this
truck went up to a mountain and just before a camp site
it stopped. everybody's rushing out of their truck,
most of them were teens wearing jacket, t-shirt and jeans.
from the woods a man run in high speed,
the man worn dark outfit, dashing and hit a truck
the truck wobbled, and fell aside.
"DAMN! alright alright, i am coming out right now!"
"geez u don't have to rock the truck so much!"
a boy step out of the fallen truck,
look kinda sleepy with messy hair.
he starred around a bit, seeing the trees, the landscape,
the dark outfitted guy, the sky, back to the dark guy
he seemed suprised and realized something
"You!"
"tch! no holidays even on a day like this"
a red crv entered the scene.
an old man stepped out from the crv,
wearing full-mountainclimber gear.
"everybody go to the camping ground, quick!"
"no time to waste! we got to set up those camp before dark"
the boy and the dark guy didn't move.
a dark cloud covered the sunlight, darkened the scene.
everybody's rushed to get their camping equipment from their truck
ignoring the heat emmitted from the boy and the dark guy.
the cloud clear out, the dark guy moved in high speed,
charging and took the boy down hill.
"SHIT!"
the boy slipped his hand out of the dark guy's hold
and made a head lock and threw the dark guy to near wide big rock.
the guy repositioned his body and land on his leg, crouched.
the guy stared at the boy and stood up.
the boy stared back and started to losened and relaxed all of his muscles.
the wind blew and grew stronger suddenly the it died down.
the guy hold out his hand and unsheath the tatto in his right arm.
"the dead dont talk!"
"SIMOON!"
the tatto flared red and slowly the guy's shadow stood up,
turning into the exact replica of the dark guy.
the boy's eyes grew wide as he saw
the shadow started to shape beside the dark guy.
"DIE"
the guy and the shadow lunged at the boy.
"tch!"
the boy jumped aside roling into the open.
he threw his jacket and closed his eyes.
the guy and the shadow readied their fist and threw their punch.
the boy opened his eyes, caught the shadow
and threw it back to the dark guy.
"MAGNUM!"
suddenly thunders shreded the sky.
the thunders disintegrated before they stroke the ground.
reappearing in the boy's hand in the form of a handgun.
the boy aimed the gun at the guy.
the guy sunddely braced himself
from behind the trees could be seen series of yellow light sparked from
the mouth of the gun and from the guy.
the guy's clothing were torn apart by the bullets but
he suffered no physical damage
the boy drew himself back. he held the gun with two hands in a firm grip
*looks like i have to use it anyway*
"BREAK!"
suddenly blue spark came out from the mouth of the gun.
the guy realizing the danger, moved his shadow to cover him
the shadow disintegrated, a sudden pain struck the guy.
the tatto on his right arm disappeared.
"ARRGH"
the boy aimed his gun once more with two hand.
"DARK FLARE"
from behind the tall grass could be seen
series black spark out of the mouth of the gun.
the guy fell down. then his body burned in black flame,
leaving only black dust.
suddenly the boy pointed his gun at the tall grass
"U ARE SICK! using your men's life just to see what i can do!"
a heavy voise answered back.
"I only gave them a much more useful life FOR ME!"
a boy appeared from the tall grass, wearing white t-shirt and jeans.
he had white hair although he looked as the same age.
"SCHYTE"
several giant rock disintegrated and reappear in a form of a schyte.
@TO BE CONTINUED@
Thursday, February 19, 2004
19th february 2004
i got A for my final assignment :)
and i'm almost there ...
as a graduated and unemployeed people ^_^
well not really unemployed ...
i am now an assistent for introduction for computer organization
which is now will fully explore programming using assembly language
*neato* new language new toy :)
oh yeah ... my current health ...
feverish ... yes
sneezing ... no
running nose ... not yet
feeling well ... absolutely not
well after the finding out that i got A for my final assignment
some HUGE friends of mine, lift me up and carry me down the stairs to the nearest tree
hold me down on the dirt and pour a full bucket of water from the faculty's fish pool
WET, STINKY and DIRTY ...
and after 4 hours later ... here i am typing this
after a shower ... some laughter to calm my heart ...
dont know why but i was rushed with this feeling of loneliness
and finaly i met someone to play and talk and joke ...
... damn i forgot to have my dinner ...
okay gotta go ... must eat ...
FOOD GET INTO MAH BELLY
i got A for my final assignment :)
and i'm almost there ...
as a graduated and unemployeed people ^_^
well not really unemployed ...
i am now an assistent for introduction for computer organization
which is now will fully explore programming using assembly language
*neato* new language new toy :)
oh yeah ... my current health ...
feverish ... yes
sneezing ... no
running nose ... not yet
feeling well ... absolutely not
well after the finding out that i got A for my final assignment
some HUGE friends of mine, lift me up and carry me down the stairs to the nearest tree
hold me down on the dirt and pour a full bucket of water from the faculty's fish pool
WET, STINKY and DIRTY ...
and after 4 hours later ... here i am typing this
after a shower ... some laughter to calm my heart ...
dont know why but i was rushed with this feeling of loneliness
and finaly i met someone to play and talk and joke ...
... damn i forgot to have my dinner ...
okay gotta go ... must eat ...
FOOD GET INTO MAH BELLY
Tuesday, February 17, 2004
17th february 2004
i just took my meds ...
and it all went down in the second gulp
after causing bitter taste in my tounge :(
it's 15 minutes past eleven pm ...
havent sleep yet and looks like i just caused 2 friends to stay over night
just because the new map i design for that "frontier" m:tg cards that's
full of hole and scattered all over the field mana
it's free for all!!!
its a match of dark steel modular vs goblins horde vs scourge full of booster
the goblin ruler smiths almost every opponent creatures in play
by throwing goblins and sharpshooting.
it's a living hell watching your creature die one by one.
and finally as the goblin leader ran out of goblin to throw, he did the worst
resurrection of a type of creatures for all player
resurrection of goblins vs resurrection of bird vs resurrection of none
and the game still continues as no creature has attack the others fortress
and as a positive side of this is ... i am getting sleepy ... xP
hmmm better lay back and think of some kind of plot to intrique the audience
that is if the rambling script ever going to hit the theatre
goal for this script would be ....
devided into chapters
each chapters will take place inside a character point of view
and the main character's face will remain unknown until mid chappter
also ... a couple of suprising secrets to be unveiled in the way to the final chapter
hmm after some thinking ... there will be more than one movie ...
2 sequels is a must ...
i just took my meds ...
and it all went down in the second gulp
after causing bitter taste in my tounge :(
it's 15 minutes past eleven pm ...
havent sleep yet and looks like i just caused 2 friends to stay over night
just because the new map i design for that "frontier" m:tg cards that's
full of hole and scattered all over the field mana
it's free for all!!!
its a match of dark steel modular vs goblins horde vs scourge full of booster
the goblin ruler smiths almost every opponent creatures in play
by throwing goblins and sharpshooting.
it's a living hell watching your creature die one by one.
and finally as the goblin leader ran out of goblin to throw, he did the worst
resurrection of a type of creatures for all player
resurrection of goblins vs resurrection of bird vs resurrection of none
and the game still continues as no creature has attack the others fortress
and as a positive side of this is ... i am getting sleepy ... xP
hmmm better lay back and think of some kind of plot to intrique the audience
that is if the rambling script ever going to hit the theatre
goal for this script would be ....
devided into chapters
each chapters will take place inside a character point of view
and the main character's face will remain unknown until mid chappter
also ... a couple of suprising secrets to be unveiled in the way to the final chapter
hmm after some thinking ... there will be more than one movie ...
2 sequels is a must ...
17th february 3 minutes till 6 am ...
and my nose is still running :( X(
anyway ...
stories ... day 1 ... evolution 1.5
chapter my fading past
scene 1
black screen ... slowly fading to a parking lot scene in blurry vision
picturing the sight of a drunk moving closer and closer to his car
monolog: " damn my head spins!"
picturing a car by the front door
change to view a car key taken out of a pocket
into car key slot
suddenly a sound of explosion
picturing a man being thrown away 's sight into a wall
monolog: "too much, no more beer ... "
picture fade to black
scene 2
sound of muttering on the background
picture black to a hospital room, the ceiling in a hazy vision clearing out
(from hazy to not hazy, from blurry to not blurry)
sound of a curtain moved(cast aside?)
picture from the ceiling of the room focus on a doctor's face
unknown doctor with the usual all white clothes and a stethoscope hanging over his neck
doctor: feeling better mister ... john ... doe ?
me : whose john doe ?
doctor: you are ?
me : okay, i'm john doe then.
doctor: . . . . .
doctor: do you have a name ?
or you would like to be known as john doe ?
me : well as you already know me as john doe, why should i change my name?
that way, i dont have to reintroduce my self to everybody right here
doctor: well it seems you're already back in shape ...
well enough to use your tone
picture of a doctor disappearing behind the curtain as the doctor pulled the curtain half way close
me : away you go and dreamland i should go back
change picture to view the other side of the room just like a man turning his head
monolog : "ouch ... my body aches"
"all parts of my body is aching"
picturing a still image of a vas with a flower
monolog : "hmmm john doe ... and i'm in a patient clothing now"
"great ... no wallet ... no id ... kid , you are so in trouble!"
"no i am not ... not if i can think of ..."
me : OUCH!
change picture quickly to see a nurse putting away the injection needle
then she takes out a thermometer and puts it into my mouth
nurse : stop screaming like a child ... done!
me : who wouldn't scream if you got injected in the ... well and ... so sudden
nurse : good screaming! good temprature!
nurse putting away the thermometer to her pocket
and scribbles away out of sight muttering
me : ouch ... this is just so not my day
monolog : i need to shut my eyes!
picture fading to black
scene 3
followed by sound of screaming
picture back quickly to a gun to the screen (to my head)
change picture from the gun to the patient holding a gun
and firing several shoot to the ceiling
a patient holding a gun is screaming a lot saying "calm down" while shooting at the ceiling
monolog : "this is stupid ... how can anybody be ... calm down"
a moment of riot and panic and gun fire ... and the patient change the gun
me : john! can i call you john ?
john : how do you know my name ?
you're coming with me!
monolog : "me and my big mouth!"
john : how the fuck did you know my name!
me : everybody that comes here without an id is called john doe for male or jane doe for female
john : so you mistaken me for somebody else !
i AM NO john doe! i AM JOHNNY STRONG
monolog : good that means i'm safe again
johnny : DAMN! DAMN YOU! look what you just make me do!
you're coming with me!
change picture from a gun to a quite but still panic people (doctors,nurses, janitors and patients) heading out of the room
monolog : kid next time REARANGE YOUR HEAD
and dont say a word when there's a guy holding a gun at you
johnny : move it!
change picture to the hallway to the stairs
background sound is still people screaming
sound of a slip
picture of a sight of a man tumbling down the stairs
me : damn ... a ... a ... ouch
sound of the door swung open
man holding a gun : there's the guy from the parking lot
picture three men on the above stair and one of them is pointing as me
me : what did i do to deserve this ?
picture of stairs ... all the way down, picturing the run away scene
from the stairs to the hospital parking lot
sound of me panting, out of breath and a bit desperate
picture of a man's sight moving between cars and suddenly the previous doctor that he met upstair was covered in blood
picture zooming out from behind me point of view
picture and sound of a flash followed by the sound of a gun
and my nose is still running :( X(
anyway ...
stories ... day 1 ... evolution 1.5
chapter my fading past
scene 1
black screen ... slowly fading to a parking lot scene in blurry vision
picturing the sight of a drunk moving closer and closer to his car
monolog: " damn my head spins!"
picturing a car by the front door
change to view a car key taken out of a pocket
into car key slot
suddenly a sound of explosion
picturing a man being thrown away 's sight into a wall
monolog: "too much, no more beer ... "
picture fade to black
scene 2
sound of muttering on the background
picture black to a hospital room, the ceiling in a hazy vision clearing out
(from hazy to not hazy, from blurry to not blurry)
sound of a curtain moved(cast aside?)
picture from the ceiling of the room focus on a doctor's face
unknown doctor with the usual all white clothes and a stethoscope hanging over his neck
doctor: feeling better mister ... john ... doe ?
me : whose john doe ?
doctor: you are ?
me : okay, i'm john doe then.
doctor: . . . . .
doctor: do you have a name ?
or you would like to be known as john doe ?
me : well as you already know me as john doe, why should i change my name?
that way, i dont have to reintroduce my self to everybody right here
doctor: well it seems you're already back in shape ...
well enough to use your tone
picture of a doctor disappearing behind the curtain as the doctor pulled the curtain half way close
me : away you go and dreamland i should go back
change picture to view the other side of the room just like a man turning his head
monolog : "ouch ... my body aches"
"all parts of my body is aching"
picturing a still image of a vas with a flower
monolog : "hmmm john doe ... and i'm in a patient clothing now"
"great ... no wallet ... no id ... kid , you are so in trouble!"
"no i am not ... not if i can think of ..."
me : OUCH!
change picture quickly to see a nurse putting away the injection needle
then she takes out a thermometer and puts it into my mouth
nurse : stop screaming like a child ... done!
me : who wouldn't scream if you got injected in the ... well and ... so sudden
nurse : good screaming! good temprature!
nurse putting away the thermometer to her pocket
and scribbles away out of sight muttering
me : ouch ... this is just so not my day
monolog : i need to shut my eyes!
picture fading to black
scene 3
followed by sound of screaming
picture back quickly to a gun to the screen (to my head)
change picture from the gun to the patient holding a gun
and firing several shoot to the ceiling
a patient holding a gun is screaming a lot saying "calm down" while shooting at the ceiling
monolog : "this is stupid ... how can anybody be ... calm down"
a moment of riot and panic and gun fire ... and the patient change the gun
me : john! can i call you john ?
john : how do you know my name ?
you're coming with me!
monolog : "me and my big mouth!"
john : how the fuck did you know my name!
me : everybody that comes here without an id is called john doe for male or jane doe for female
john : so you mistaken me for somebody else !
i AM NO john doe! i AM JOHNNY STRONG
monolog : good that means i'm safe again
johnny : DAMN! DAMN YOU! look what you just make me do!
you're coming with me!
change picture from a gun to a quite but still panic people (doctors,nurses, janitors and patients) heading out of the room
monolog : kid next time REARANGE YOUR HEAD
and dont say a word when there's a guy holding a gun at you
johnny : move it!
change picture to the hallway to the stairs
background sound is still people screaming
sound of a slip
picture of a sight of a man tumbling down the stairs
me : damn ... a ... a ... ouch
sound of the door swung open
man holding a gun : there's the guy from the parking lot
picture three men on the above stair and one of them is pointing as me
me : what did i do to deserve this ?
picture of stairs ... all the way down, picturing the run away scene
from the stairs to the hospital parking lot
sound of me panting, out of breath and a bit desperate
picture of a man's sight moving between cars and suddenly the previous doctor that he met upstair was covered in blood
picture zooming out from behind me point of view
picture and sound of a flash followed by the sound of a gun
17th february 2004
it's nine minutes to 1 am ... what the heck ?!? ...
well i'm not that sleepy ... yet
so here goes my rambling ...
this is the 3rd day that i caught the flu ...light flu i hope ...
and i still got 2 more days before my final assignment trial
hmmm got to prepare my presentation slide ....
oh ... and i havent installed and do that diagrams thingie X(
....
okay some rambling thoughts ...
stories ... day 1 ... evolution level 1
a weird guy was killed by a lazy gross pathetic guy
atleast it was what the report said to the public
pathetic guy run all over the place ... freaked out
3 years later ...
pathetic guy turned to be not so pathetic guy ...
still lazy but not THAT gross anymore
then captured by the cops,
to be released under the surveillance of the GHOST
after 3 months met a girl ...
let's make it a scared girl
threathen by thugs he happen to cross her path
and help her (typical knight in shining armor)
being grateful and all ... and in deep problem
she asked the knight to defend and safe her from any harm
until the day she's reunited with her long lost brother
or that no more life threathening problem would arise from
her college senior
becos she's a newbie and every newbie has to undergo the
"adapting phase" as the seniors call it.
as his official surveillance period is off he's looking for an apartment
and he had to share it with a strange boy who keeps eyeing
his movement curiously and sometimes go out for 4 days straight
without saying a word.
it's nine minutes to 1 am ... what the heck ?!? ...
well i'm not that sleepy ... yet
so here goes my rambling ...
this is the 3rd day that i caught the flu ...light flu i hope ...
and i still got 2 more days before my final assignment trial
hmmm got to prepare my presentation slide ....
oh ... and i havent installed and do that diagrams thingie X(
....
okay some rambling thoughts ...
stories ... day 1 ... evolution level 1
a weird guy was killed by a lazy gross pathetic guy
atleast it was what the report said to the public
pathetic guy run all over the place ... freaked out
3 years later ...
pathetic guy turned to be not so pathetic guy ...
still lazy but not THAT gross anymore
then captured by the cops,
to be released under the surveillance of the GHOST
after 3 months met a girl ...
let's make it a scared girl
threathen by thugs he happen to cross her path
and help her (typical knight in shining armor)
being grateful and all ... and in deep problem
she asked the knight to defend and safe her from any harm
until the day she's reunited with her long lost brother
or that no more life threathening problem would arise from
her college senior
becos she's a newbie and every newbie has to undergo the
"adapting phase" as the seniors call it.
as his official surveillance period is off he's looking for an apartment
and he had to share it with a strange boy who keeps eyeing
his movement curiously and sometimes go out for 4 days straight
without saying a word.
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